Going, gone
January 17, 2007
Oh god, it’s hard to stop yourself to say “stay” to the one you don’t want him/her to leave.
Sum of all Fears
January 7, 2007
I realized that i will see a dentist soon when a massive pain shocked my whole body while trying to chew a candy bar. Never really had a problem with dentists but for god’s sake i shit my pants even when i think about it. Dental anxiety, i guess.
Better drink a lot and stick a gun in my mouth to put an end to this. Or visit a dentist as a last resort.
Milestones
January 5, 2007
If you have too much spare time and a twisted mind like mine, by the time you reach twentysomething ages you instantly find yourself looking back questioning your life. Well, even it does not seem same to others i think i have made some remarkable things.
Age 4: Finally managed to not-to-wet my bed (that age 11 thing was a small exception, considering the liquids i consumed that night, phew)
Age 10: After succeeding in the exams, gained opoortunity to attend a school which gave me this f**king terrible english.
Age 13: Fell in love for the first time. After forgetting her in a short time discovered that love can be a fake feeling.
Age 14: Made first decision about my career and attained military high school as a cadet.
Age 15: Became a guinea pig for my own experiments about the effects of alcohol on human body. Found the numb feeling good. Decided to do that often.
Age 18: Made first correction about my career and left military school.
Age 19: Found myself in college by a series of coincidences and became to-be-a mechanical engineer.
Age 20: Admitted that it was not easy to graduate from college.
Age 21: Same old stuff about love. This time the feeling was strong about it is true love. Fake again. Also acquired driving license, my own one. Really.
Age 22: Left parents’ home and began living in a junkhole with homies from school. Cooked for the first time. Felt lucky for not considering cookery as a career.
Age 23: Fell in love. Different from the other ones, this time girl fell in love with me too. Stepped into a long term relationship without knowing it was one.
Even though i was not so satisfied with it before revising my life now it seems much more ok with me. Could it be better? Maybe. I don’t care, honestly.
